Lord of the Flies~Journal Entry #3

Chapter: Order
Ralph’s Journal

I knew we had to get started on our shelters right away. Last night, I got no sleep at all because of the constant sprinkling of the clouds. I can’t believe I didn’t think of it sooner. Today was the day. I went out with Simon with a forgiving attitude. We started building the huts with a lot of people helping. We made little progress besides the crowd of volunteers. Soon, the littluns started going away one by one. I went to go check on Jack’s progress to get away from the huts for a few minutes.
I stumbled into Jack; he looked like a wild creature, even though his outer appearance was just the same as before, although maybe with a little bit more swarthiness. I was almost scared at his appearance and his belligerence, and I knew I had to snap him out of it. So, I told him to come help me build the huts. I don’t know what’s with Jack. I was elected the leader and that is how it will remain. He tested me, and I decided it wasn’t worth the fight. I went back to work with Simon, but he went to go help the littluns I noticed. “Those errant kids!”, I was thinking to myself all through the day. Does no one care that I am the leader?
The next day, I hoped for better. It was better…at first. Piggy and I saw a ship out on the horizon. I jumped with joy, but then I realized the maybe the fire wasn’t going. I looked, expecting the smoke to be so big that you could even see it from a satellite. As soon as I looked, the happiness died and I grew angry. Jack had let the fire go out, even though I trusted him so much. This was why I was leader and he wasn’t. That’s the thought that kept my sanity in check.
I ran to the fire to get it started up again and to make sure it wasn’t still going. Just as I saw the unlit ashes, I heard Jack coming up the mountain singing and happy, just like I was when I saw the boat. Malevolently, I told him that there was a boat, and how he screwed it all up. He kept showing me a dead pig with an officious attitude, and at that point I didn’t care how much my stomach wanted to eat. I knew at that point that everyone was getting out of hand, and that I have to step up as leader, and start acting like an adult. If I didn’t, then we will never be rescued. But how would I take action, and put some order into a bunch of order-less kids? That’s the question I need to solve…soon