Lord of the Flies~Journal Entry#5

Chapter: Beastie or no Beastie?
Simon's Journal

Late at night, Ralph called an unexpected meeting. He said that Sam and Eric found the beastie and that they were going to go look for it. I decided to come along, still not believing that its there. I wanted to see it with my own eyes. They kept talking about all of this beastie nonsense at the meeting. For all we know, it could be someone trying to save us.
I went , just to see if they were telling the truth. On the way to the rocky side of the mountain, they were still talking about the leviathan-like beastie, and what it looks like. I started believing that there was one, but then I thought of how many times my mom told me that there were no such things as monsters. She wouldn't lie to me.
When we got to the side of the mountain with the rocks, I followed Jack, still unsure about who the leader was. I followed Jack into a cave and watched as Jack and Ralph surprisingly started to get along...for only a minute or so. Then, they started arguing, AGAIN. I just sat back and listened, as I do most of the time, only because I don't want to be embroiled. I also get a not-so-happy feeling from Jack. I don't know what it is, maybe because Ralph seems to be more reasonable most of the time.
They started arguing interminably about throwing boulders down from the hide-out. I had to agree with Ralph, his ideas always seemed to make more sense. I followed Jack down the mountain when the argument was as done as It was ever going to be. Then, when we got back to camp, I watched the littluns for a while.
The next day, I was talking to Ralph. I thought he had great leadership skills, and that he made more sagely decisions than Jack did. I told him that he would make it home, even though I wasn't so sure of it myself. Hopefully it would help Ralph stay as our leader. I don't know how we would get rescued if Jack were our leader. I kept encouraging Ralph, until it seemed like he believed me, then for the rest of the day, I watched the littluns and helped them build sand castles. I don't know why everyone is so mean to the littluns, they don't like being stuck on this island just as much as we don't like it. If only I were brave enough to tell Ralph and Jack that, even if it was diffidently. Or, maybe just Ralph.